" Everybody Cheats-II"

Hmm, so most of them thought just the part-I teaser and thats it huh? Well am here again :-)

Saturday came, there was call from the shrink to postpone the appointment. Then she called again and I was relieved to know the appo is okies. 3 pm.I was on time. no waiting. Ushered to her chamber right away. She was on that not-for-her chair. Voila ! Shrink in jeans & tee shirt.  May be my eyes gave away, she explained without I even saying a word..." well, I had to come straight from airport...".

I took my seat. Coffee served. Black. No sugar. Maid leaves. Me waiting. Shrink sips coffee. Puts it down on the coaster. Shrink quiet. Tapping on the table with a ball point pen[ remember it was a blue one]. I shuffle my legs. Crossed & uncrossed. Some one had to break the ice.

Me: well.. shoot doc !

Shrink: How you feeling? The valium bothering you?

Me: Not at all. Sleeping more. Do I continue?

Shrink: is she married?

Me: [ without batting an eyelid] Yes. two kids, grown up.

Shrink: so are you. How old are your kids you said?

Me: [silence for few secs, she raises her eyebrow] Raja is 16, Paula just had her 19th B'day last month. [ a pause] err.. her kids are almost same age. both sons.

Shrink: [ stops  writing notes, oh did I  mention she was taking notes , as if a steno taking dictation!] Guilt complex?

Me: Nope.

Shrink: regrets? [ she  folded her not pad totally, looking straight. 1st time I noticed she has a tiny nose stud]

Me: Not at all. Its been about 2 years now... a little more.[ I dont know why I had to specify the duration. Was I thinking longer the affair, more justifiable it is, as if explaining its some thing serious and not kinda cheap thrill or short time fling??]

Shrink: why you want to close the chapter, if I may ask?

Me: [ I pause, cough and after a prolonged Ummmm..] We want to but its not happening. [ I stressed on the 'we' part. Here I lied. "we" never talked about ending it. I knew at that point of time, even if I wanted to get over her, she was just not ready to accept it]

Shrink: [ opens her note pad again, looks at them, makes some more notes] you are married with two grown up kids and having an affair with another married woman , her children are grown up too. For two years and more.I dont see any problem here. Why are you here?

Me: [ I hated her so much then ! she had to be so blunt intentionally? or was this part of the treatment?] Silence, crossing and uncrossing  legs.

Shrink: same city , here?

Me: Yes. [ I paused] . Family friends. Both families known to each other. Her husband good friend.Wives go shopping together. Kids meet, movies. Dinners at both homes. I want another coffee please.

Shrink: [ intercom] Kamla, aur ek kafi. [ her cell rings, she sees the caller, disconnects, her phone was on silent mode btw] what you want to do really?

Me: I dont know.

Shrinks: [laughs ] You are at a position of a commoner, convenient, comfy & all cool.Next week ,say Thursday same time hmm? Continue the valium for another week, same alternate nights, 0.5 mg. k?

Me: Hmm, sure, thanks doc. [ Why did I feel so much relieved at that point of time? ]

I left her chamber. Today she had about three people waiting , so no bbyes from respective cars.

Notes from my diary:

Is she is a B**** or just a normal shrink? Why the hell she doesnt change her damn chair ! Am I good actor? Am I trying to fool myself? No one is getting hurt, nobody is harmed and yet doc said," everybody cheats!". Shiiiit.. am I cheating? Whom?Only the people involved, me and her, knew the truth. In those situatoins the real me come out. What doesn't kill me or her... makes me stronger.

well.. Guess thats it for today. There will be a part-III folks :)